Hinder

So there I was;In the shower, music in the background, minding my own business when the opening rift came drifting to my ears and I couldn't skip it as I usually do. I had to listen... It made me sad....

There was a time when I loved that song. The chord progression and the singer's rough voice got me everytime. But I'd made memories to it now, memories I can never have again. Hearing that song was a reminder of that. Then it occurred to me how much we miss out on. I'd been missing out on good music because it hurts to go back there. How much more have I been missing out on because I havn't been brave enough to go through the pain and get to the other side?

But this is life. It is beautiful, excrutiating, exciting, dangerous. If we only experience the goodness in life, can we really say we've lived it to the full? So I say embrace it all even though we want only the good. Take the bad too, feel it and then move on to better things. Goodness knows that those better things would not feel better if it were not for the bad things.

Freshly Baked

When I bought The Muffinz debut album "Have You Heard?" it was for one song only; "Soundcheck".

For the past 3 months that would be the song I would put on repeat. I was barely interested in any of the other tracks. They were pleasant enough but I gave them very little of my attention- until tonight...

I like listening to music when I'm emmersed in something else. I pick up on much more of its beauty that way. So tonight,as I watched my wall change colour, I fell in love with all The Muffinz. The pretty harmonies in "Come With Me", the funky rift in "Soldierz" that makes my fingers tingle for my own guitar and the emotional ramblings of the Keke Lingo which still has me wondering what is being sung despite knowing that there is no translation. Not to mention the Shona verse in "Khumbul 'Ekhaya" ( at least I can learn the meaning of this beautiful melody) I could go on and on and on but you get the idea :)

All I can say about this album is that it's getting increasingly harder to  put any of these songs on repeat. From the rocky guitar rift mixed with skatting in "Have you Heard?"  to "The Next Super Man" that begs your hips to jazz, right up to the soothing sounds of "Umsebenzi Wendoda" each song that ends promises the beginning of a new song with new aspects that will captivate you.

Valley

I'm blogging from a PC for the first time in almost 2 years - how nostalgic!

This takes me back to the days when I had nothing to do with my day but recreate my blog template, chat on google and facebook between 12 and 2 pm. Life was so much simpler and frustrating back then and so much has changed... I have changed - I wanna go back. But I shouldn't go back. The things that have happened in my life have been mainly my doing and many of them could have been avoided, but crying over spilled milk doesn't unspill it; it has just makes me bitter.

And so I look forward and I move forward. Very aware of where I've been and with no idea what lies ahead. What I do know though is that if I stay here, I will die...

Sleepless in my bed

I've said it before; my mind is a dark neighbourhood I should stay away from. It only takes one thought and next thing I know, I'm waist deep in mud...

Half the things I think about are deep, but mixed with so much crap that there is very little clarity. I'm starting to think that these outlets actually induce the negative musings. It's not so bad when I really put my mind to something that takes my concetration.

A few weeks ago, I watched him get emmersed in a 6 string... He played for hours though his eyes were heavy with the need to sleep. I envied him because in those hours, no negativity could get to him. He was untouchable... Give me some of that! It's better than any drug or fermented fruit and it stays with you long after you stop...

So I'm gonna find me some and lose myself in it.... I'm going to be untouchable too...

Me and my big mouth

I like being open about things. It's often dangerous to ask too many questions. Often you start something that ends in disaster, but is ignorance really bliss when there are things going on that make you look foolish?

I think it's better to know. But once you know, make the right move for your own safety and sanity...

Get a Life

Last night I did what I always do at the end of a school day. I came home, took off my bottoms and climbed into bed. Then it occurred to me - It is the eve of spring and I'm lying in bed and life is passing me by... How sad have I become?

So I made a decision. I'm gonna get a life. I'm gonna spend time with my friends who have always seen beauty in me and are now pleasantly suprised to see it displayed. I'm gonna take pretty pictures and write about them because this is one of the things that makes me happy. I 'm gonna read Romeo and Juliet and set the best lessons I can because when the penny drops for them, I get goosebumps. I'm gonna sing along to my favorite music and sometimes even jam to it. The list is endless!

It's a new season and it calls for one thing only - for me to GET A LIFE!

Be Selfish With Your Happiness

I read this on a friend of mine's tatoo. It was one of those "of course" moments when something seems so obvious. Little did I know...

This morning, I find myself with a dilemma. I have to make a decision that's going to directly affect me and what is my first instinct? To ask what I should do. What the hell for when this is my happiness on the line? Why do I need someone else's permission to be happy or unhappy? Why do I give people that kind of power over me?

So here is the resolution. I'm not going to wait for someone else to make me happy. I will make the decision that is best for me and I won't wait for them... Resolved.