Marching On

You know what, as much as this experience has hurt me and changed me, I'm still the same girl. I still have so much to be proud of. I loved another with my whole heart and had that love returned - something I've always dreamed of and desired.How many people can say that,really?
In many ways, my dream came true...

Pain

Why do the right decisions hurt so badly? I mean if this is the right thing,surely I would feel some element of relief that it's over and  that I can move on...

And why does it feel like I'm moving on to nothing? This isn't right. None of it is, but all I can do is try to heal somehow.

I don't know what the future holds. I don't think I want to know....

Love

I've been wracking my brain for months now. I've been suspecting that the love that I have is selfish. I've been loving because I was loved first. That's selfish, because what  happens when you are not loved anymore?

So I've been doing the noble thing;finding reasons that had nothing to do with me - "because you're sweet and funny"- that kind of thing.

But then it hit me. He accepts me for  who I am,not the person he wants me to be. In fact, he wants me to be the person that I already am. How amazing a person is that?!