I've never been the kind of girl who is ashamed of her age. If you ask me how old I am, I'll tell you without hesitating; I'm 25.I have started to notice though that I am, in a way ashamed of my age and I show it in different areas.
When I think about my group of friends one thing stands out besides how different they all are; most of them are younger than me. Because of this I find myself thinking like them and very often emulating them. Here's an example; I started this new thing of dressing my jeans up with a nice pair of heals or something and often when some of my friends see me dressed like that, comments are passed about how dressed up I am which makes me feel embarressed about how overdressed I am. Now to kids my age, I'd imagine that this would be a perfectly acceptible way of dressing right? But I wouldn't know that because I don't hang out with kids my age..... hmmmm.
Something drastic needs to happen. Obviously my friendships are not tradeble so giving them up is not an option so what is a girl to do? I think there is much to say about owning who and what you are. Accepting that I am not thin for example, helps me to see the good in the body that I do have and helps me to enjoy my body more. I find that there is less pressure with younger people, because they feel they have more time on their hands ( so not true, but let's not burst their bubble). When I am around people my age one of the biggest things that is spoken about is marriage. I have no input in this subject matter because I don't even have a boyfriend let alone someone to marry. The next thing is climbing the career ladder and getting stuff. My career has bearly started and I've never been very materialistic which pulls me up shot once again. In a nutshell, with kids my age, I am an amateur!
We were talking at cell once when one of the older guys mentioned that it's ok to want to the best for your life. It's not greedy to dream of owning an expensive car or beautiful home, those are the fruits of our hard work and these things are often necessary ( that thought is one for another blog!). I've often stopped myself from dreaming big because I've felt that I was being greedy, but without those dreams, how do we get out of the ruts we find ourselves in?
So, I guess I should start owning my age again; coming to terms with it and adjusting my thought patterns around it. Not to apply pressure on myself in terms of where I should be at my age, but so I can yearn for and go for something better in life thereby bettering myself :) Maybe this attitude adjustment is the beginning of great things.... we will soon find out...