Unfair

I've never been very good at relationships and as a result, They have never lasted very long....

But this one looked promising. We were both so hopeful. Then it happened. It was  completely out of both of our control. There's nothing to blame but fate. And now it's gone. It's often easier to blame something, but this was purely circumstance. It took us 5 years to get past coldplay, It'll take a lifetime for this to pass too and there's nothing I can do about it.....

Such is life...

It's Donne!

I found this treasure today. My friend took John Donne's The Good -Morrow and turned it into beautiful modern words. Listen...

I wonder my love, what you and I did till we fell in love? Were we children? Did we play childishly? Or did we party up a storm? It was like this, but these were all temporary pleasures. If I ever saw any beauty, which I desired, and got, was a dream of you.

And now good day to our waking souls, which aren't afraid of love, because love, love turned every little room into an everywhere. Let sea explorers go to new worlds, let maps showing other worlds, show them, but let us possess one world, our own, where I am half of it and you, another

My face in your eye appears and yours in mine as well, and true plain hearts rest in each other's faces. Where can we find two better hemispheres that are better suited? Whatever differences we have, if we have the same love or even if we love so alike that if not one of us slacken in love, not one of our loves can die.

*enough said*

Hinder

So there I was;In the shower, music in the background, minding my own business when the opening rift came drifting to my ears and I couldn't skip it as I usually do. I had to listen... It made me sad....

There was a time when I loved that song. The chord progression and the singer's rough voice got me everytime. But I'd made memories to it now, memories I can never have again. Hearing that song was a reminder of that. Then it occurred to me how much we miss out on. I'd been missing out on good music because it hurts to go back there. How much more have I been missing out on because I havn't been brave enough to go through the pain and get to the other side?

But this is life. It is beautiful, excrutiating, exciting, dangerous. If we only experience the goodness in life, can we really say we've lived it to the full? So I say embrace it all even though we want only the good. Take the bad too, feel it and then move on to better things. Goodness knows that those better things would not feel better if it were not for the bad things.

Freshly Baked

When I bought The Muffinz debut album "Have You Heard?" it was for one song only; "Soundcheck".

For the past 3 months that would be the song I would put on repeat. I was barely interested in any of the other tracks. They were pleasant enough but I gave them very little of my attention- until tonight...

I like listening to music when I'm emmersed in something else. I pick up on much more of its beauty that way. So tonight,as I watched my wall change colour, I fell in love with all The Muffinz. The pretty harmonies in "Come With Me", the funky rift in "Soldierz" that makes my fingers tingle for my own guitar and the emotional ramblings of the Keke Lingo which still has me wondering what is being sung despite knowing that there is no translation. Not to mention the Shona verse in "Khumbul 'Ekhaya" ( at least I can learn the meaning of this beautiful melody) I could go on and on and on but you get the idea :)

All I can say about this album is that it's getting increasingly harder to  put any of these songs on repeat. From the rocky guitar rift mixed with skatting in "Have you Heard?"  to "The Next Super Man" that begs your hips to jazz, right up to the soothing sounds of "Umsebenzi Wendoda" each song that ends promises the beginning of a new song with new aspects that will captivate you.

Valley

I'm blogging from a PC for the first time in almost 2 years - how nostalgic!

This takes me back to the days when I had nothing to do with my day but recreate my blog template, chat on google and facebook between 12 and 2 pm. Life was so much simpler and frustrating back then and so much has changed... I have changed - I wanna go back. But I shouldn't go back. The things that have happened in my life have been mainly my doing and many of them could have been avoided, but crying over spilled milk doesn't unspill it; it has just makes me bitter.

And so I look forward and I move forward. Very aware of where I've been and with no idea what lies ahead. What I do know though is that if I stay here, I will die...

Sleepless in my bed

I've said it before; my mind is a dark neighbourhood I should stay away from. It only takes one thought and next thing I know, I'm waist deep in mud...

Half the things I think about are deep, but mixed with so much crap that there is very little clarity. I'm starting to think that these outlets actually induce the negative musings. It's not so bad when I really put my mind to something that takes my concetration.

A few weeks ago, I watched him get emmersed in a 6 string... He played for hours though his eyes were heavy with the need to sleep. I envied him because in those hours, no negativity could get to him. He was untouchable... Give me some of that! It's better than any drug or fermented fruit and it stays with you long after you stop...

So I'm gonna find me some and lose myself in it.... I'm going to be untouchable too...

Me and my big mouth

I like being open about things. It's often dangerous to ask too many questions. Often you start something that ends in disaster, but is ignorance really bliss when there are things going on that make you look foolish?

I think it's better to know. But once you know, make the right move for your own safety and sanity...